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9:27 PM
Hey peeps!
Another half a year has flown by since someone last posted here. (i think the blog's pretty upset bout it XP) It's been a while too since we last sat down and talk bout nothing and everything. Wish we could do that again but i don't suppose time will stop for us. I hope everyone's doing fine and maybe when all of us graduate (for most of u guys it'll be like the following yr) we can find some time to maybe say travel together and just reminisce our old times before we get swept away by the other more urgent demands of our life.
But here's whats up with me:
Well of course there's the fact that i'm taking my a lvls this year. I have yet to feel the pressure setting in though which is bad (i think). I hope that i'll still do well because in this two yrs i felt like i've felt like i've learnt a lot yet i've learnt nothing at all. Very contradictory I know. For now i guess im coping fine with my work but i don't think it'll last long. :(
Also, there had been some issues with my supposedly good friend (the other twin). Things got a little complicated and so now i've decided to keep my distance from her to prevent myself from hurting her with my unwillingly sacarstic comments( and also to stop me from hating myself everytime i do tht). So now all i can do is to go from one group of friends to another but then i can't seem to share my innermost thoughts with them cos i still can't trust them with those secrets. I'm just hoping this year ends soon and i'll go on to university where i'll begin with a fresh clean slate again, on my own. It sounds like a daunting prospect for me but that's the only way to continue so i guess i'll live with it. Although i can't share my secrets with any of these friends, at least i'm happy with them. With them, i feel like i'm wanted by people again and people do enjoy my company. It's been a long while since i've last felt that maybe because i think i was always closing myself up against people.
And like always, there's always guys that i like but never get, and this time round it's complicated with a guy who like me but sadly i dun share his sentiments. I promised to remain as his friend but i didn't find out that he was awkward with tht arrangement til recently when he "officially" asked me if i would accept him.(insensitivity on my part i noe) It still feels good to know that somebody would actually like me for such a long period of time though i do feel apolegetic for giving him the wrong impression. He's a nice guy just that i would prefer someone who's more mature, who can take care of me (and abide to my whims :P) for a change. The guy i like seems able of giving me that feeling but he's not interested so i'll just have to wait for another to come along and maybe this time round the feeling would be mutual. :D My mum says i should do more good deeds then the person would appear sooner :P so i'm going to test out that theory since changing for the better is not something i'm against. :)
This is more or less what im up to these days because i think that's enough "complaints" for a single post and i've come to realise that i actually do complain a little too much. :p I must really thank the person who made me realise this. ( She's someone who's contented with everything she has, she doesn't bother whining bout it but if she can change it she would, if not she'll leave it be) Do keep me posted bout ur lives too cos i really got no idea what u guys are doing now. (n i do feel apologetic because up til now i cant rmb what poly u guys are in.... i get a little confused by the polys u c...)
Lots of love
Claudia :)
